I went to the Darien Lake a while back and I have a struggle with roller coasters and I can name all the things that can go wrong on them. It is stuck on a track, goes up and down and around corners, but always the same each time, but for some reason I think that in all those things just one thing will break the moment I am on it or maybe it is because I have no control of what can happen. I used to get nervous when other people drove, I had to be the passenger, it is hard not being in control. The other person driving you are at there will.
How true that is in life too. Giving up control to God is one of the hardest things to do, because I relinquish my control to Him. I say my life is Yours, do what you want, but once the drop happens, it is so easy to try and say no, I will take back control. When things are good it is easy to give Him control, but when things are hard, I pray and ask for help, but am I willing to say God I surrender what is going to happen to You. Lord You take control of it all, not 99.9%, but all of it.
It is so hard to relinquish all to Him, I seem to want to hold onto that 0.1%, because giving up control is difficult, but God says when we have nothing, then we have everything. I want to give Him everything, but man it is probably one of the most difficult things to do. He wants us to go deeper, but even in the deeper it is easy to keep holding onto my own will, my human flesh and He wants me to put it to death and allow Him to lead. To lead a Christian life, it can't be about me, what I want or when I want it, I have to rely on God and His timing, His way doesn't always line up with my way and my timeline.
Faith is the
Hebrews 11:1 "
Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." Am I willing to take a step of faith, trusting that God will guide my steps?
Guide my steps means that I have to be willing to walk, to move forward and trust God in it all. He is the assurance, He will guide me along the path, but I have to move. It is through faith that I move, that I walk and have my being in Him. I can't just sit still and hope that things change, I have to walk by faith, not by sight. I use to think that God would change things, but I was not moving in the direction, I was planted in my place, but I need to move and allow God to direct each step. Easier said than done. Just like giving Him control of the ship, I have to pull anchor and allow God.
This all comes down to a choice, am I willing to allow God and I am willing to take the step of faith, give up control and allow Him to have His will in me, not just in the easy, but in all the places in my life?
