The Question

As I listen to this song, I have to ask myself the very question that this song asks.

"I'm Still Yours"

If You washed away my vanity
If You took away my words
If all my world was swept away
Would You be enough for me?
Would my beating heart still sing?

If I lost it all
Would my hands stay lifted
To the God who gives and takes away

If You take it all
This life You've given
Still my heart will sing to You

When my life is not what I expected
The plans I made have failed
When there's nothing left to steal me away
Will You be enough for me?
Will my broken heart still sing?

If I lost it all
Would my hands stay lifted
To the God who gives
And takes away

If You take it all
This life You've given
Still my heart
Will sing to You

Even if You take it all away
You'll never let me go
Take it all away
But I still know

That I'm Yours
I'm still Yours

Oh, I'm Yours
I'm still Yours
I'm still Yours

 

It is time to surrender, no matter what I have lost. I look at my life and I have lost quite a bit. I struggle with doubt, discouragement and just fear. I want it my way, but the more I lose, I realize that if I would just surrender it to God, then it isn't what I have lost, but what I have gained. It is about seeing that more of Him, means less of me, less of my needs and wants, because I am replacing them with what God wants for me, not what Geoff wants for Geoff. It makes a big difference, but each day will define how much it makes.

 

Completely surrendering my will, my wants, my thoughts, my all to Him. What does that leave me? It can't just be part, I am finding it has to be all. What is OK for someone else to do, does not mean it is OK for me. I am reminded of that daily.

Inspirational songs

"Falling Into Place"

It was raining on the sun
The ground beneath my feet was crumbling
Day and Night had come undone
It was the season of my wandering

Somehow Somewhere
You found me there
It was the moment that it all became clear

I was on the edge
Of a distant world
A shattered life
With no where left to turn
Till I saw you there
And everything I thought had gone to waste
Was falling into place

It's finally quiet in my head
As I lay the pieces at your feet
It's finally starting to make sense
I guess I found the missing part of me

Oceans that I almost drowned in
I had to lose it all
Just so I could find out you were there to break my fall


"Watch Over Me"

I was lonely, You came waltzing over to me
And Your eyes they saw right through me
And You heard each one of my cries for help
And You came to rescue me

I was broken, every prayer that I had spoken
Reached Your ears and all my tears weren't cried in vain
You carried all my pain
And put me back together again

You watch over me in the darkest valleys
You watch over me when the night seems long
You help me to see the way before me
You watch over me, you watch over me

Always faithful to be leading, at this moment
Interceding for Your children
Though I've wandered astray from Your infinite ways
You've never left me alone

Take my frozen heart, awaken me
Never once have You forsaken me
Even though I walk through this shadow of death
You will guide and defend me

You'll guard and protect me
Even though I walk through this shadow of death
You will lead me home

Faith

Last night I was reaching a point in the silence of wondering why I had lost everything. Why my life had taken the turns it had. A friend wrote me to say your life is a blank white page. I guess, I struggle, do I really want to start all over again, go through it all over again and all the steps. I was really hoping that I wouldn't, that my life would come back together. As I sit here today, I know that the lessons I have learned have been countless and only time will tell what those lessons are for. It is walking by faith night by sight. Last night as I struggled, I was looking for something to listen to and the first song that came to me was this:

Kutless - What Faith Can Do
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason for someone not to try
Every body's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can!

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

How fitting is that. I am thankful that I have my life and I can rise with Gods help from the ashes of the destruction. I have tried to do it every other time, maybe it is time to see what God gives me. One day at a time, resting in His love for me and learning more and more each day of the days to come. More of Him, less of me.

Stuck

Many years ago, when the farmers worked the fields by hand. They would use a horse and a hand plow. They would have to hold onto the plow and direct the horse along through the fields. The plow would dig down and bring the soil from below up and the top soil it would be put down under. This way it would help the soil to remain fresh and clean. Once in a while as the farmer forged forward that plow would become stuck in the ground, the more the horse pulled, the more the plow would sink lower in the dirt. Nothing that the farmer did freed that plow from the earth. He held on and as he did the plow would not move forward or backward. The horse would grow tired and nothing was gained from this exercise. Except for a mad farmer and a tired horse. In order for anything to happen to that stuck plow, the farmer had to let go of the plow, he had to stop trying to force it to move. He let go, the horse was then able to move and this allowed the plow to make a upward and forward movement. Either it was stuck on a rock, or just stuck, didn't matter, but letting go was the only way.

I am like that farmer. I wanted things to go my way. I held onto the plow, forcing the horse ahead, but then the plow got stuck. It didn't move, the more I held on, the more the plow dug in. I forced, I even tried to push the horse, but it wouldn't move. I didn't want to give up, but the one thing to know, by letting go of the plow you are not giving up, it is just surrendering that I can't force it. I have to allow it to free itself and what happens is not up to me. I can't make things happen, I just have to allow them to run their coarse.

I didn't want to let go of the plow. I didn't want to fail again, I didn't want to admit that I couldn't do it, but in doing so I have surrender what I wanted and put the other person first. It is only then that I can move.

Our fun weekend

Memories, very important to make memories, not just for kids, but also in your lives as well. The things you as a couple can look back on to say remember when. Don't miss the chances, each one is worth it,