Struggles

I spent a few days struggling with where I find myself in life. Why haven't my prayers been answered, why am I still stuck in the same place. I wanted to be done with this journey, but the journey continues. I started looking at life as "my" life and I was stuck in the idea it was not going in order of "my plan". Do you see the issue? It took me a little while to see it too, but when I did see it, it was like hatching from an egg for the first time.

You see my life is not mine. I am only the moon and it is about reflect the Son's light. What am I without the Son? I am a dark circle with nothing. I was being selfish and wanting the things for me. Life is not about me, it isn't what I have done, it isn't about me getting to where I am. It is about God. He has gotten me this far. I was lost and He found me. I was blind and He let me see. I was selfish and I spent a lot of time focusing on me, it isn't about me, it is about God's plan for my life. It is not my will but God's will and once I am able to surrender to God then He will direct my way.

It is so easy to say things would be better if, or I wish, but it isn't about that. It is about saying I am just a man and it is God that holds the plan for this man. He is in control and the quicker we lay down our self wants to Him, the quicker He will work in us, work through us. We will fight the desires of the flesh, because we want to matter. But do we really matter if we are only focused on ourselves? How can we love if we do not love ourselves, how do we truly understand love if we do not look at what has happened to show us love.

How can I shine, if I do not except what God is doing in my life. The people I come in contact with say I am different. Why should I then be the same as every man around. It is God that makes me different and when I focus on me, then I am the same as others. It took me a long time to see this, but it is God that makes me different and He is the only one that I can give credit to. I must lay down my will and let His will be done in my life. Life is not about me, it is about God. I am only one man, but GOD.

He is my provider and my strong tower, in Him shall I rest. It is through God that all things are possible. There is no impossible, because God is the I'm, in the possible. He has made the world, but the bad doesn't happen because of God, it happens because we all have free will. But what is the bad teaching us are you learning or are you running. It is time to stop running and take God's hand, He is giving it to you. He loves you even when we sin.