Out of Words

Can you believe it, I am out of words. I am lacking the ability to say anything positive or negative for that matter. I have been told by someone that reads this (not my mother) that they actually enjoy what I have written. It was an encouragement to hear that. I had wondered if anyone other then my mother has or is reading this. I am encouraged that there are others. Thank you Mom, I do appreciate you very much for reading what I am writing, it is a blessing to have people in our lives that encourage us, stand with us and that are there for us.

This evening as I look back on the years past, I realize that I have had many people come into my life during this time. Yes, some have gone either by my choice or there's, but the ones that stay with me it is a blessing knowing I have friends. Friends come and go, but true friends last a lifetime. It is a blessing knowing that there are true friends that are there to support me and help me. Thank you all for your encouragement and your support. This time has not been easy for me, but in the difficulties it has been an incredible lesson and I am thankful for the lessons I have learned. They continue to ground me in my faith, in my beliefs and in who I am becoming. I want to fit in and in doing so, it is easy to let the outside influences effect my life, but it is when that starts to happen that you have to be aware and do something about it. See life is a choice, how we live it is a choice, it is our choice, when we let the outside come in and disrupt what God is doing in our life, then we must take a stand. Letting things go is not taking a stand, it is when we are able to stand that we will grow stronger. When we just sircome (I don't know how to spell that word) to the winds of others, we don't grow and learn, we tend to tumble and break. It is time to stand strong, to make the hard choices and to get rid of the negatives in our life.

I can make a choice to live as I have lived before, but in that where will that take me? I have been down to the roads of destruction and it isn't pretty. I have to say I would rather be alone then walk those roads again. I know that it may sound crazy, but the life I once led only filled me with wanting something to fill me more. Have you ever noticed that, if you follow the path that is easiest you tend to want more and more. It is the path that is harder, that you tend to be filled with the knowledge and hard times. I guess that is the whole point to what I am trying to say. If you want easy you will continue to want and your way will seem endless and without meaning, but if you want to be filled, chose the harder path for it will lead you down a path that will fill you with life, hope, joy, peace and even in the hard it will be better then wanting something more fulfilling.

Does that make sense? Am I crazy, it is time to stand. Don't let the winds of time take you down paths that will lead to destruction, it is time to take a 180 and turn away from them. Walk free for there is only freedom in being free. Easy may seem fun for a time, but it will turn to pain and hurt. Then getting away from it, will only cause more pain then you may understand. Take a stand, turn from the path to destruction and see there is hope.