Am I Convicted?

This week it seems that everything I have read, listened to and written all asks the same question, that question is: Does my light shine in the darkness, can people tell I am a Christian by my actions, by the way I conduct myself, by the words I speak or just what I profess. When I hear something like this once it makes me think, but when I hear it 3 times, I have to wonder what God is saying to me.

I want the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart to be pleasing to God. I have failed in the past to be the man of God in which He called me to be. I have failed to allow Him to work and in doing so I have failed God. I don't like admitting that, but if I don't learn from my mistakes what kind of man am I. Please don't answer that. I want to be who God wants me to be at work, at home, to my fiance, to my son.

I don't know if this sounds crazy, but have you ever dealt with someone and said there is something different about them? I want God to continue to change me from the inside out, to make me a mirror of Himself so I may be able to be known that I am a Christian by being vigilant to make sure the mirror is clean, make sure I do not hide the Light of Jesus under a bushel.

My prayer today is that my actions profess the love of Christ, that I do not hide who I am because of fear or because of the fear of rejection, but I stand and I stand not for myself, but for Jesus.

Lord Help me to be the man that you call me to be, help me to continue to learn from my past so that I may continue to learn to be the man You call me to be. May I not be swayed, but transformed by the renewing of my mind every day, every moment. Thank you for loving me and teaching me even when I have failed you and when I did not live according to you. Thank you for washing my sins away and giving me a chance to love again, to walk the way you will have me walk. May I continue to seek you in all I do and may I put you first and continue to surrender all to you. Thank you Lord for the life you have given me and thank you for a new chapter that is based on your love, your instructions and your way.