Anxious

Today I can see a lot of reasons to be anxious, but what does it do me to get all tied up worried about this or that, worried about the job I am doing, worried about life, about everything that is in God's control. What is in God's control? Everything is, I find it easy to put God in a box, to say He can't fix me, He can't change me, but we are talking about the grand creator, we are talking about the one that made the earth. He designed me just how I am, where I have walked, He knew I would walk there, where I am walking is not a surprise to Him. It says He knows how many hairs on my head, He knows when a bird falls, that is incredible and yet I am worried about what will happen today.

Then I realize, it hits me like a ton of bricks, I can't change others, I have to surrender all to Him, that means even my schedule, even my day, I have to allow Him to lead the way. When I lead I forget all I have learned, I end up going through the same struggles, the same everything I did yesterday or last week or last month, but God says when we are heavy laden to rest on Him, to throw all our cares on Him for He cares for me. Wow, He cares that much for me that I can just surrender myself, the way I am to Him. I can just give it all up and say Lord your will be done in my life, in my marriage, in my relationships, but I have to be willing to surrender them, stop fighting for what I want and allow God to move.

It is called dying to self, it is laying down my life and saying Lord your will be done. It is funny I read a devotional about how a little boy was trying to make the Tabernacle and he was putting this sheep on the alter, but the sheep kept falling off, so he wanted to nail it there. Aren't we just like that sheep, when the heat gets turned up, I want to get off the alter, I want to say this is to hard, I can't do it anymore, but God says Geoff this is how I purify you, trust Me, I will not let you down. I will not fail, humans may let you down, but Geoff I am the Alpha and Omega, I created you, I designed you, I wont let you down.

Today, remember that we are all learning, we are all going through tough things, but the more we rely on God, the more we turn it over to Him, the more He will change the situations, the areas we are struggling, but if we hold onto them, well it is harder to allow the change. Allow God to work, don't put Him in a box like I tend to do, trust Him, He will sustain and He will change you.