My Way

I wanted life my way. I wanted what I wanted every step of the way. I wanted to feel loved, to feel included to feel important. I stuck my head out, I reached into peoples lives to try and help, but when God isn't part of it, it is easy to get lost in the mess. It is easy to allow the very thing that we are speaking about to take control and get in the way. My life, my priorities were all messed up, they focused on the very thing that destroyed who I am... They focused on me, what I wanted, where I wanted to be, what I wanted to be doing, who I wanted to be with, how I wanted to feel all of these were choices I made. You see I made life about the most important person... LOL And for some reason I thought it was me.

When we take a step back and look at our lives, can you say that you are any different? I am not judging you, because I have 100000000000000000000000000 fingers pointing back at me. I am not perfect, I have my struggles, I fall down and I am working allowing God to take those area's and turn them into something incredible. It is when I say it is not about me, but about God. It is about letting Jesus make the changes in me. When I am able to say not my way Lord, but yours. Let your will be done in my life. I failed time and time again and when I wanted it to go my way, it went the wrong way. When I tried to do it with my own power, well I petered out. But when I say Lord it has to be you, not me is when things start making more sense.

Putting Jesus first in all we do means just that. Not 90% of the things, but all the things. It is allowing Him to work no matter how painful it gets, because I had some painful things that I had to let Him deal with. Feelings that I had struggled with for many years, but it isn't even 99% it is all of it. Are you holding back like I did? Are you saying God work in me, but not this area, or that area those are off limits? Because in order to be completed, we must allow Him into every area. No more holding back, no more not letting Him take control.

The one area I struggle with is being alone, but it was when I said Lord if this desert is where you want me, then I will be here. It is allowing the very things that I have wanted to let them go. The friends, the people I can be with, a girlfriend, a wife, a best friend. I had to let that all go and say Lord I am all yours even the area's that I wanted to hide are yours. Allowing Him to take everything and what I get back isn't what I expect, but probably more. Only time will tell. It is in COMPLETE surrender. Are you willing to surrender completely to Jesus and let Him be in control.

J = JESUS
O = OTHERS
Y = OU

Unthinkable joy. Is your marriage in trouble? Put Jesus first, then others and last see you. I have heard many people say I do everything my spouse wants and still no change. Well, stop and see what is wrong in that statement... Do you see it? Put Jesus first, not your spouse... It is when we are able to put Jesus before others that we are able to see what He wants. Take a minute and reflect think and see what God has for you today.

Have a wonderful Wednesday and see that God has a blessing for you today. Don't be afraid, for He is with you, allow Him to be what He needs to be in your life. He is with you always.

As I saved this and published it, I sensed I needed to add this song to it.
                                                              "Empty My Hands"

I've got voices in my head and they are so strong
And I'm getting sick of this oh Lord, how long
Will I be haunted by the fear that I believe
My hands like locks on cages
Of these dreams I can't set free

But if I let these dreams die
If I lay down all my wounded pride
If I let these dreams die
Will I find that letting go lets me come alive

So empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with you

These voices speak instead and what's right is wrong
And I'm giving into them, please Lord, how long
Will I be held captive by the lies that I believe
My heart's in constant chaos and it keeps me so deceived

But if I let these dreams die
If I could just lay down my dark desire
If I let these dreams die
Will I find you brought me back to life

So empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with you

'Cause my mind is like a building burning down
I need your grace to keep me, keep me from the ground
And my heart is just a prisoner of war
A slave to what it wants and to what I'm fighting for

So won't you empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with you

Empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with you

With you
I need you now