Fear

It is easy to become fearful of so many things. I struggle with the fear of being alone for the rest of my life and when that fear comes in, it takes hold and soon I am swallowed up by the fact that I am alone and that my life is not where I thought it would be. I get lost in the sea of self doubt and self reflection of what got me to this day.

Then a light shines in on the very thought, the very thing that started my wondering and fear and I hear God say I am not a God of fear, but of sound mind. My fears, my doubt are just that a thought, a fading glimpse of the man I once was. God calls us to stand, to rise above and to trust Him all the thoughts that I struggled with, the fears and the doubts if I try to do what I want they will remain, but if I put my trust in God then whom shall I fear? Fear can grip us, can overwhelm us, but do we trust fear? I can't trust fear, for it can drive us to complete mistrust.

God calls us to surrender all our thoughts and bring them in accordance with Him. Is that fear I have of being alone of God? No, not at all. If I wait and trust then I know that He is the author and finisher of what He has for me. If I try it on my own, it will end in devastation and ruin, but if I surrender my wants to God then the fear is not their. God is greater then all that we want, all that we yearn for and all that is. He is the only one that can free us from all the past and turmoil, He is the answer and the only answer.

Fear and doubt will bring confusion and doubt. It is when we say Lord I want to, I yearn to trust in You. I surrender what I want to what You have for me. It is not what I want that matters, it is what you want. I am alone for a reason and my fear of being this way for the rest of my life is yours Lord. I am but a man, You are God. I surrender my want to you Lord, for it is not my way, but Yours. For my eyes need to be directed to you. More of you and less of me. Less of me, means less of the fears, because my focus is on You.

Lord, thank you for all your help, thank you for bringing us peace and thank you for bringing the people into our lives to show us the truth that you have for us. Let us continue to put you first in all we do, so that we may rest in your answers and not try to tell You what we want, but rest that you are the only way.

Thank you for this Monday, the snow and all, for it just helps us see the beauty you have for us.