There was a very difficult time in my life, I strayed from what God wanted me to do. I walked my own way and in that way,
I lived in this house and on the outside of the house was gardens, flowers, trees, there was a vegetable garden all maintained to the hilt. I mean this place looked beautiful, it was an old house with an old barn, but it looked so nice. The outward appearance made it look inviting, it made it look like that house would be beautiful on the inside, but it wasn't. That house was filled with hatred, hurts, lies, deceit, pains and so much more. People that couldn't get along. It was a shell, hiding the truth of all that had happened, and the owner kept up on the outside to hide the hideous nature of what was behind closed doors.
I am thinking of that today as I sit here at work and realize how true that is in so many of our lives. We adorn ourselves in jewelry, makeup, fancy hair cuts, cologne, we are afraid of someone seeing the real hurt and turmoil that is happening on the inside. We shield ourselves from anyone getting close to us, by putting on an act of everything is fine, but yet we know all to well that we are a mess, that we are hurting and afraid. We want to hide that truth from people that may look at us, but the truth is what is on the inside will slowly manifest itself on the outside.
God knows what is on the inside, the things that we are trying to hide from others, God knows what is in our hearts, our minds, what is behind the intentions, He is well aware of all of it, but still He loves us regardless, yes I am sure it grieves Him, but He continues to reach into our lives to make the best of us.
If we are what we think we are, then why not change the ugly turmoil that is inside our lives and give it to God? God made me, He knew what pains I would have, what fears I would fight, He knew the struggles that I would face day to day, but He made me and He loves me still. He continues to say Geoff surrender to me, give it to Me, those feelings of failure, they are Mine, give them to Me. Those feelings of selfishness, give them to Me, for it can't be about you Geoff, it must be about Me.
When we make life about us, we miss the point of what God wants life to be about. Life must be about, God first. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and mind and then love your neighbor, your friend, your brother, your wife, your husband, your kids.
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