Tonight

My mind is a swirling mass of thoughts, spinning out of control. The wondering what will tomorrow hold, the thoughts amiss, but yet they are strong and I continue to carry on. I hold onto the hopes of what my future holds, but not knowing can drive anyone to wonder will I always be alone. Will I miss the very thing my heart yearns for, or will I be able to share my love and joy once more. The struggles of waiting and hoping is hard, but what is harder is the unknowing of it all.

I have talked to so many people in struggling marriages, lost in the thought they want to be loved, but unable to give all to the one they say they love. They have lost so much and don't know how to get it back. I wonder, is it as simple as it may seem, if we love the other unconditionally. We have made marriage and life so complicated, we live in rules, laws and forget the truth. Is today the day we start to see, that life as complicated as it is may not have to be. Our thoughts are a messed up, our priorities too, what is most important to me, may not be most important to you. But when we say we love someone, our priorities change, to be what they need no matter how insane. We love them when they are blue, we love them when they are green, we love them even when in makes no sense to me, but that is what love is, it is giving more and no complaining about how much we give even when they are out the door. We struggle to see what is plain to me, that we need to love unconditionally.

So today I leave you with these thoughts, is love as complicated as you thought? To love a little or to love a lot, we have to give and continue to give, just like with our kids. We don't say that is enough, I have tried my hardest, we continue to give no matter what. That is unconditional love, are you giving your all, have you lost focus on what love is and who you are in love with? Today take a moment and think with me, what is your biggest priority? Is it you, or is it the one you are with? Change your focus and see that when you focus on the one you are with, you start to see what love truly is. Don't look for returns, but continue to give. One day the gifts you give, will come pouring back to you and when they do, you will truly see.