Learning

Just because I say that I have learned from my past does not always mean I walk in the ways I have learned. It is easy to think that I know what it is like and how to apply things to my life, but then I realize that I have messed up. That in order to save a flower, I must be willing to water it. Watering does not just take saying kind things, but also living in the words I may type. It is being the same person no matter how hard it is.

We are reactionary, it is so easy to look at something and instead of walking away from it like I should do, I will react. That reaction causes a chain reaction of events and all that I could have avoided if I only took the things I talk about in here to heart. Sometimes the road from the head to the heart are the longest, it is being willing to stick it out, not giving up and no matter how it may look, stop using your human eyes to see it. I use my human eyes and I fail.

We are constantly learning and area's that we thought we have conquered will come back to make sure we have learned them, sometimes it is a OK, but other times I fail, in those times it is so hard to admit my failures, but through admitting my struggles, is where I realize I need to grow more. Don't be afraid to go back to what you have learned and read them over again. It takes time, but the time is worth it.

I am still learning and the lessons get harder and harder, but the results are out of this world. Don't be afraid to admit struggles, don't hide behind being imperfect, because God is doing a deeper work in each of us and His ways are much higher then ours.

To change I must be willing to allow God to cook the impurities out of me, they aren't all gone and He continues to turn up the heat. He continues to make me who I am and no matter what, I want to mirror Him and I don't want it just to be in words.