Strength

I am reading a book and last night there was this section about strength. I have prayed a lot to ask God to give me strength to make it through things. But what I didn't realize that it is not my strength, it isn't about me, it is about relying on God. God is the strength that I was looking for, I can't do it, my way isn't the way, but God's way is. I ask God for strength, Lord give me strength, but if I were to wait on God, He is the strength..

My favorite verse is:
Isaiah 40:31 "But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."

If I wait on God, trust Him for the strength, He will provide. I can't do it, I have to trust in His Holy Spirit, not my will, but Yours be done. See it isn't about me, it has to be ALL about Him. His will, His strength, His way. When I wait on Him, He is the one that will provide, He is the one that will go before me and He is the one that prepares a way. Not my way, but His.

We abide by in Him and the Spirit in us, we hear the Spirit, but do not walk in the way are we doing it God's way or our own? It is all through God opening our eyes, but I truly believe that when we allow Him to lead the way, He will provide just what we need, but in and of myself I can't do it, really when it is about what I want, it will not work, but when I say God it is Your way, Your will and I must die to what I want and allow Him. He will move and have His being in us. Not us in Him, but He in us. Not my strength, but His.

How many times in life have I wanted to do it, but I couldn't. I asked God to give me the strength, but see if He gave me the strength it wasn't His. I need to wait on Him, I need to trust completely in Him. I need to lay down my life, so that He can be the strength, not me, but Him. Even typing this, is hard, because I want to put what I always thought, give me the strength, or provide away for me. It has to be God's way, not mine. I can't do it, but God can move and have His way only when I stop making it about my way.

It isn't just a realization today, it has to be a course change for me. I have to be willing to stop and say Lord X, Y and Z are Yours. I have wanted one thing, but in complete surrender I turn it over to Him. His will be done and when I love Him with all I am, I serve Him with all I am and then His ways are so important to me, it is no longer about me, but about Him. I believe I can say I am a Christian, but if I am not sold out for God, His ways will be harder to see. I will squeak by, but I don't think that is enough. I want to allow Him to move me, not me move and hope I am going His way, but Him move and have His being in me.

Bottom Line:
God is our strength, am I relying on Him or am I trying to do it my way with His help?