I thought about all the catch phrases I could us, to grab your attention to make this seem even more interesting then it actually may be, but the truth we are all in the same boat. People wandering through life as zombies. We are afraid to put ourselves out there. We are afraid of our own shadows. We walk through life wondering if anyone else is like we are, but we do not ask, because no one wants to be truthful with their own feelings, let alone tell us that we are not alone. We struggle to see the truth in everything we do, we wonder if life is really like this or is it a dream. Could this all be a dream? No, it isn’t dream, it is life.
Some people get that this is life, but they want to live it in there own ways, hiding from others. Hiding the truth that they have seen. Yes, you get the occasional person trying to share with you the knowledge they have gained through walking life, but it is up to us if we want to listen to them or not. We have choices to make, do you want to make choices to change the way you have learned to walk through life as a zombie, excepting your daily life just how it is. Lost in your own emotions, lost and unable to see the truth even if it was right in front of you. Blaming your wrong choices on everyone around you, blaming everyone else for where you find yourself, or really where you do not find yourself.
We look at others lives and say we want what they have, but when you break down the walls of what they have, they are lost and just putting on an act to make it seem real to the people looking in. They want to feel, to live to, but no one knows how. Or is there hope?
I was one of those people that walked through life as a zombie, lost in my own feelings surrounded by my own thoughts and me. My way or no way. My thoughts and I didn’t want to listen to anyone else, I wanted what I wanted and I wanted it now. But then I had a realization that life was not what others defined for me, but how I saw it. I needed to define life for me and in doing so, it would set things into motion. Most people want to hide their true feelings from everyone else for fear maybe they are wrong. But what makes someone else’s feelings wrong? Is it our own fears that drive us to the point of insanity? We are lost, but where is the truth? Who carries the truth, where do we find it.
There are many people that say they have the truth, they know the way. But it takes us making a choice to find the way they chose. Maybe their choice is not the choice we need to make. Have you ever tried to break down the feelings that you have and why you may have those feelings? I have and it isn’t a pretty picture, it isn’t a picture I would like to draw, but in order to express the true nature of who we are, we need to break down the feelings, to break down our doubts, to dive deep into ourselves to find the truth. It is possible to do, but the choice is yours to do it. We can go to a psychologist, therapist or we can see it for ourselves.
You have probably read a lot of self help books, listened to the people talk on the radio, or even bought the books because you wanted to know the truth. How do we find the truth that is meant for us?
Our lives are filled with many choices and in those choices we can see life or death. It is the choice that will drive you forward or that will hold you back. Have you ever heard of our life defined as a choice? I don’t know if I had, but we can get busy living, or just realize death will take us soon enough. Our lives our short, some shorter then others, some longer then others, but in the life we have; do you want to lose it lost in your own self doubt, or see what life has for you? These are choices no one else can make for you, no one can drive you to see the truth, only you can find the courage within to say I want a different life. Do you have that courage? Do you see the path that is before you? You probably see no path before you, if you really want to break it down, you see an endless road of going to work, getting up and doing the same things over and over again and in that is there life? No there is nothing, there is only the damnation of living this life and preparing for death. Is that where you want to be?
I have thought long and hard about this and how to write this, but nothing was coming to me. It was like a sea of blank white paper. Unable to put the thoughts that where trapped in my head down on it, how could anyone find help in what I have gone through. How could anyone see the truth in the area’s I have struggled with, but these are all questions we ask ourselves each day. Maybe we have just stopped asking it to ourselves and have resolved to fill in the gaps with nothing. We pick up things in order to escape our own lives, we hide behind what was formed in us, to escape to worlds that other people have created, because we can’t face our own torment.
Today it is no longer about what others do, but about what you do. It is about reading and seeing the truths that life has to offer, it is about not being a zombie walking through life just to move and breath, but seeing that your life has potential to be something much more then it ever was before. That no longer do you have to base where you are from the past, but base it on today. People are tied up in the past, they see only the past and only what they have done. How many times have you heard or have you said if only, I wish if… etc. Then you are not alone, but people don’t want to admit that to anyone else, they want to think they are alone, that there is no way out, but there is and no longer do you have to struggle, but that there is hope for a brand new day and a brand new way. Do you want that? Do you believe that today you can have that? Don’t give me some stupid pat answer that you give your kids, or you give your parents, because that is what you think they want to hear, it is time that you start diving deeper into your feelings of why you are just giving answers with no feelings, that you are just beating around the bush for fear of finding the truth in the bush. The truth is, it is a choice to live or let death take you.
What if we all just said do we want to live or die? It is a choice and most people will say I want to live, but that is because they are afraid of telling people the real truth, that they are struggling to see the reason they are alive, that they struggle to see life. Maybe if you stop looking for it, because most of the time it is right there before your eyes, but you are afraid to see the happiness that you can feel, that you can have. Maybe you are afraid that it is fake, just like you have been for so long that you figure it is fake too. Maybe it is time to stop thinking and start breathing, maybe it is time to actually make the choice to live not for the past, but for what is here today.
We all have been caught up in our past, we get lost in the pain and confusion of what was, instead of seeing life for what it has for us. We focus on what was taken, the bad choices that we made or others made around us, we want to defend to make excuses for where we are, instead of seeing life not for what it was, but for what it is. Are you one of the people that just want your life defined by your past, or do you want to start defining your own life? It is your choice, it is in that there is hope if you see not what was, but what life has for you today.
We were lost, but now we are found. Do you want to find yourself? The number one way to start finding who you are, stop looking for others to find you. Start acknowledging your life, your feelings, you are real. You are not a zombie, you are someone with great feelings, great potential and it is a process, but in order to start the process you have to take the first step.
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